1 sleep left.

What have I done lately?

Well, yesterday I went to work for 2 hours. I was thinking they'd make me work today too, but with my luck -- it wasn't mentioned. So I had a free day today.

I woke up at like 8-something, had french toast, then decided I felt nauseated and tired and went back to bed. I rarely do that...weird. But I woke up at like 11am.

I went one a couple errands. Went to the bank to get some cash out and bought a small, little somethin' somethin' for Jess and April.

Afterwards, I went to Antoinette's house and we watched a few episodes of True Blood. I made a pretty necklace and Sam's friendship bracelet. Once I mail it out to her, the three musketeers of Jaman will be complete. It's pretty bright colours just like you wanted, Sammma.

I'm pretty much packed for Forks tomorrow (yipee!). I got the shitload of maps I got from AAA Auto Club of the UK, Europe, and Seattle/Olympic Peninsula area. They may come in handy. Also a tour book on places I get discounts. Woot.

I also packed a beautiful mini book of Irish drinks recipes (kudos to Jess). Now I'm just hoping that my bag will turn out to be the right size...it should be. I brought a lot of random shirts too...I wonder which I'll wear.

Well, I'm doing laundry and I think I need to put it in the dryer now. So...this is goodbye.

I CAN'T FUCKING WAIT UNTIL TOMORROW! WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! SO EXCITEEEEEEEED. <3 <3 <3

mmm males.

First I want to start off with my current favourite insult and threat. These are brought to you by Jessica. I heard them and almost literally ROFL'd.

First is the insult: "Go eat a bag of dicks." I never heard it before and apparently it's been used for a while. I literally visualize this insult, and while it's horrific, it's fucking hilarious as an insult.
And last, the threat: "I'm going to cut you open and sleep inside of you." What the fuck is this? It sounds like a B-rated horror flick. And once again, this is absolutely grotesque, but fucking hilarious coming from Jessica. Because seriously, who WOULDN'T want to use another human-being as a sleeping bag?

And now on to the important stuff.

It was my birthday Thursday. June 18...turned 22. Nothing changed, except I'm 100 dollars richer and now own season one of Moonlight. Alex O'Loughlin owns me. I wouldn't throw him out of bed for eating crackers (only Moonlighters would understand that).

Then my lovely friend Heather came over and brought me a bag of Kitkats and some cupcakes. That was delicious. Afterwards, I went to TGI Friday's with my mum and ordered my favourite Broccolli and Cheese Soup. Monumental. Then after that I went and saw UP! with Heather. Adorable movie. Absolutely great. Although, I wish they could have expanded a bit more on the woman who takes care of the little boy, and maybe some closure for him and his father. And I was good with all the creatures and talking dogs, that was actually pretty creative and legit. But when the dogs started flying planes...that's when I was like: "Okay, too far." But, in reality, it was adorable and really good. Sweet.

Yesterday I went on a one hour cruise around San Diego harbor with my friend Toni and her baby girl, Athena. I had a blast. It was cold and windy, but it was awesome. We saw all the Naval, Army, Marine stuff. The U.S.S. Cargo ships, aircraft ships, etc. I also got to see a shitload of Sea Lions laying on docks. I took a picture and sent it to Sam. Not sure if she saw it though...I wish I knew how to transfer pictures from my camera to the internet. Oh well.

After that we went to TGI Friday's (again). I got a delicious mudslide. Mmmm...And then, surprise, surprise, I ordered Brocolli and Cheese Soup. Yumm.. Then we walked over to Edward's Theaters and saw The Proposal.

Ah my God. It was really good, actually. Of course...it's all thanks to the abnormally sexy Ryan Reynolds. I don't know why, but he just drips sex appeal. Haha. It was hilarious. Ugh...gorgeous and funny. No fair. Please, please...fuck Hollywood and marry me? HAHAHA. Kidding. But, really...it was great.

So, my days have been filled with gorgeous men: Alex O'Louglin, Ryan Reynolds, and Jonas Armstrong (he plays Robin Hood in the BBC Robin Hood tv series. I'm currently watching the next episode).

Now, I just need to borrow my brother's small suitcase that I can use for Delta (fuck 30 dollar baggage costs). Eh, I'll wait until Tuesday night to pack. I always do.

Lovelovelove.

tired? why yes.

I made Jessica a SWEET ASS FRIENDSHIP BRACELET yesterday. I'm going to make Sam one too. Why? 'Cuz we the three musketeers. We Jaman, yo. Sam, what colours do you wanna' sport?

I am so fucking tired. You have no idea. Why am I up at 12:30 AM when I'm so damned tired. When I'm sick...I guess because I get to sleep in. I've been 22 for literally 30 minutes. I think I should be able to sleep into till noon on my birthday, yes? Jessica keeps telling me to stay up; I think she secretly wants to get me sicker. She wants me to be monorail in Washington, apparently.

I went to Soup Plantation for dinner with my mum. It was yummy and I got very full. Nothing eventful. We went to the grocery store afterwards and got some cookies and a pecan pie for tomorrow. Hopefully this pecan pie will be better than the last one I got. The last one left a weird aftertaste. LAME ASS.

So like...fucking what? 6 days until I'm in Washington? That's awesome. I cannot wait! It's becoming more real as the days pass. I don't know, I've always been excited. It's just fun to do something new.

I am currently reading "Dark Lover" and "The Choice" by Nicholas Sparks. Sweet? Sweet.

Ugh, I know there is more I want to write. Let's see...I worked like 2 extra days this week. More money for vacation. YAY.

Maybe I'm too monumentally tired to think. I think that's it. Oh look, I thought. Sweet. I lie. Anyway, since tomorrow (today?) is my birthday, I'll probably do something sort of eventful. Who knows? Then I'll have something interesting to blog about.

OH! I watched Henry Poole Was Here today. It was good. Another makes-you-think movie. I love Luke Wilson. He's awesome. Never really thought he'd be in this sort of movie. A indie, depressing, something-to-believe-in movie. But he's good. I love him. He has one of the puppy dog faces that are good at looking depressed and distraught. I want his babies.

And with that note.
Good night (morning?)

P.S. Watch this music video:

hallelujah.

I'm drinking a vanilla malt from Beef n' bun right now. It's absolutely delicious. I hate milkshakes, but malts hit the spot. So. Freaking. Good.

I went to a Samoan church service this evening. It was entertaining. Lots of singing and hallelujahs and praise the Lords. The sermon was great and it was really energetic.

I went to JoAnn's Craft store today. I bought a black mask, lacy tulle-ish fabric, black cord, etc. I put it all together and made this:

I can't wear it at the moment because I used superglue and the fumes from it make my eyes burn and water. Oops. Hopefully after a few weeks, and some time spent outside, the fumes will disperse and it will be wearable.

I wrote a bit of the second chapter yesterday. I think I may write some more tonight. Yes?

Oh! I received my candy cigarettes in the mail today! EXCITING. Now I have something to snack on when I get the munchies that won't add any weight onto my hips. Hahaha.

I can't wait until I get the cafepress shirt in the mail, as well as the BDB book I ordered. I'm going to read it on the plane to WA.

YAY! I GET TO SEE ONE OF MY FAVOURITEST PEOPLE IN THE WORLD IN LIKE TEN DAYS. Jessica owns my life.

Well, I'm going to find something constructive to do.

inspired.

So, after reading the ever-so-lovely Jess' post, I felt inspired to rant as well.

First of all, I find it absolutely and completely rude to make fun about "lung cancer" when there is a person in the room who has had a father die from the disease. Sure, it's all jokes, but have some respect please. It fucking hurts. And even when I mention that it hurts, I get nothing back. No "sorry". No "my bad". Nothing. At least acknowledge the mistake.

A good number of my friends smoke, and I don't have anything against it. But it hurts nonetheless, knowing what they're doing. And I know they know what they're doing. They know the consequences. I guess, after seeing someone die of lung cancer...it puts me in perspective of it all. Makes smoking that much worse in my eyes.

And when a person says, "I was outside getting lung cancer..." Well, I'm sorry, but that's just fucked up. Joke or not.


I love how watching the randomest of movies can put your life in perspective. I finished watching Gran Torino. And just like American History X, it shows you that there is just no room for hate in life. It makes your life miserable. Instead of hating, you could be loving. Love is so much more freeing, fullfilling.

But of course, it's impossible not to feel hatred towards things. God gave us the freewill to love and hate, and well...hate comes so easily.

And with that, SOMETIMES I FUCKING HATE SOME BITCHES.

Wow, am I a hypocrite or what? Talking about love, and God, and then I go and say something like that.

I guess that's what makes me human. Unfortunately, I can't always use the "human" excuse.

Now I'm just rambling on.

Jessica wrote up an epic, I mean, monumental first draft for our UK itinerary. It was amazing. I want to add to it when I'm not so fed up with the computer.

Well, that's that for now. Check out the Josh Ryan interview we did @ simplytwilight.com

you shall desire me.

Today I went to Soup Plantation for my friend, Katie's, surprise birthday party. Of course, that makes no sense to me since her birthday is in March. But whatever floats the boat, I suppose. She's always wanted a surprise party, so we did it. I just love seeing all my friends, and talking about the most random shit ever. Our group's conversations usually revolve around parenthood and babies. Several of my friends are now mothers.
I had delicious salad with italian dressing. I had pizza, biscuit, fruit, blueberry muffin, and frozen yogurt with sprinkles and chopped nuts.
I love seeing my friends, whom I rarely see.
I then proceeded to go to Michael's with my friend, Antoinette. I love the craft store; sometimes there are good prices. Sometimes.
I bought this weird ass pecan bar, a lollipop, and stick on diamonds for my masquerade mask that I still have yet to create. I may just stick them on my face...it depends. I want to feel pretty.

I got the Pheromone Shimmery Diva Dust that I ordered from the Slumber Party, today. It's like the finest body glitter you'll ever see. Since it has pheromones, you won't be able to help but like me when you're around me.
Me at a bar in Seattle: "Oh, hello, nice to meet you..."
Guy at bar: "FORGET THE NICETIES, LET ME BUY YOU A DRINK!"
"I don't want a drink..."
"LET ME BUY YOU A MANSION THEN."

Pretty much. I guess I'll never know if someone truly likes me, or if it's the pheromone enhanced glitter.

I finished the Josh Ryan interview finally. It's been nagging at me. I edited the best I could. Yay.

I think I'll paint most of tomorrow. Yes, that sounds good.

I hope I get the refund for the dress soon. FML if they don't give it to me fully.

Lastly, please take a listen to this:

i've never given much thought to how i'd die...

...but Jessica has.

So, everyone, say your goodbyes to me before I leave for Washington on the 24th. Jessica has several ways for ending me, the only thing is: which will she choose?

1) push megan off a cliff at first beach
2) push megan off a cliff at second beach.
3) find an ant hill in forks that is home to those fire ants - push megan into the ant hill
4) leave megan in victoria, Canada and steal her passport
5) get megan drunk in port angeles and convince her to fall asleep in a garbage can
6) drown megan in the pacific ocean
7) sell megan to the angry fish mongers in seattle
8) sell megan to the chinese in chinatown in seattle
9) get megan drunk and leave her in downtown seattle and the newborns/crackheads get her
10) push megan off the ferry while en route from PA to victoria

And in the words of Jessica, "I'm totally going to pull a 300 move as I'm pushing you... but instead of saying.. 'THIS IS SPARTAAAAAAAAAA,' I'm going to say... 'THIS IS LA PUSH BABYYYYYYYYY.'"

For those who I will not get to say goodbye to: it was nice knowing you.

bueno.

Today was a good day I believe.

I woke up, had some pancakes, and watched American History X. Let me tell you, that was a bloody good movie. Wow! Edward Norton is a genius. The ending, of course, was sad. (Spoilers ahead). I had a feeling someone would die, but I was never sure of who. And, wow...just wow. That was absolutely greusome, and watching Edward Norton's character run into the school, yelling to let him through, and just...holding his brother. Needless to say, I was bawling. Brilliant film; watch it.

After that, I showered, slipped on my brand new TMNT t-shirt, which is the most amazing thing ever. A pulled on my brand new high top chucks. Did my makeup, put in some earrings, and my irreplaceable black gelly bracelets...

I picked up my paycheck today. My second to last paycheck from the job I got laid off from. My last one is July 5th, and that's like a 40 dollar paycheck. I'll end up getting one more paycheck before I head up to Washington. So, I won't be destitute while I'm up there, but I won't be spending anything either. I'm hoping that if I don't needlessly spend cash I have, then I'll have enough money to buy the Dublin plane ticket in August. I'm hoping to only spend money on the hotel at TwiCon, and money for food and drinks. I don't want to wait passed August to get it. August is my cut off month, if I have too, I'll borrow more money. FUCK. Wait...I still need to pay the sister back. Gah. I'll figure something out.

I got complimented at work today. I was so surprised. He even said my work was "brilliant". That was a first. It made me want to come back. Heh. That's what I'm talking about. People that work need to be complimented every once in a while in order for them to do better, and try harder. Sure, money is enough to make a person do their best, but when they get complimented, well, they usually end up trying 10 times harder. I'm getting an extra few hours in this week as well. Thursday and Friday. Sweet.

So now, I've realized I have several things to do.
1. Top secret web site thing that I should get in tonight (ahem, Jess?)
2. Josh Ryan interview
3. Chapter 2 outline
4. Supermassive Black Hole video (I need to record myself)

I need to get number one done tonight, number two done tomorrow, and the rest sometime this week. Especially before June 14th, when everyone turns in their SMBH videos and I have to spend two days putting them together.

Anyway, God bless.

30 minutes until monday.

I've been wanting to write something all day, but I just don't have anything interesting to talk about. So, please bear with my absurdities.

First off, I want to destroy my sister's new little kitten, Jasper, because he's chewing on my wires. Bad kitty.

Secondly, I really want to see Where the Wild Things Are. Refer to trailer below:



By the way, the song playing is "Wake Up" by Arcade Fire. Beautiful song. It's on my iPod for life.

Well, tomorrow I have work and I don't want to go. It's only for two hours, but I don't know. I just don't want to go. I'd rather be home planning Jess and my trip to the UK, or reading, or writing a top secret novel -- whichever. But I need the money.

I'm rereading The Host. I absolutely adore that book. It's amazing. Sure, it starts off slow, but when you really get into it...it's hard to put down.

I tried working on several ST things today, but failed. I just couldn't get into it. I'll probably work on them tomorrow. I've been so apathetic to Twilight lately, but I still love the fandom and the friends I've made through it. It's all irreplaceable.

I feel like wearing my TMNT shirt right now, just because.

clothes that don't suck.

So, I went to the mall today. Yes. I. Did. I didn't plan on buying anything, but I did. But it's all stuff I needed.

Like this:


I also got a Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle shirt...which I can't find a picture of. But it's pretty epic.

And then I got my shoes for my ball gown:


Oh, and I bought a ring pop, strawberry. Yay.

That is all!

i'd do this if i were you.

I'd click that little picture right there and participate if I were you. Just sayin'...

A
- Available: Yes, since December 26, 2005
- Age: 22 in 11 days
- Animal: Servals.

B
- Beer: I detest beer, but if I have to pick, the only kind I can take is Guinness (because it's not carbonated)
- Birthplace: San Diego
- Best Friends: Ariana, Heather, Jessica
- Body Part on opposite sex: Stomach.
- Best feeling in the world: I'm not sure.
- Blind or Deaf: Deaf, definitely.
- Best weather: The beginning of Autumn.
- Been in Love: No.
- Been bitched out?: Not in person.
- Been on stage?: Yes.
- Believe in yourself?: I try to.
- Believe in life on other planets: Plant life.
- Believe in miracles: Yes.
- Believe in Magic: No thank you.
- Believe in God: He's what makes me, me.
- Believe in Santa: Never did.
- Believe in Ghosts/spirits: No.
- Believe in Evolution: Absolutely not.

C
- Candy: Kit kats and Reese's Peanutbutter Cups please
- Color: Blue
- Cried in school: Maybe a couple times
- Chocolate/Vanilla: Depends
- Chinese/Mexican: Mexican
- Cake or pie: Pie

D
- Day or Night: Depends
- Danced: In private
- Dance in the rain?: Love it
- Do the splits?: Never could

E
- Eggs: Scrambled
- Eyes: Blue
- Everyone has a: person that loves them
- Ever failed a class? No

F
- First crush: Like I remember. Probably this one guy named Adam
- Full name: If you're reading this, you should know it.
- First thoughts waking up: Just a few more minutes...
- Food: FRUIT. Nectarines, strawberries, and grapes. <3

G
- Greatest Fear: Never actually living.
- Giver or taker: Both. I love giving to people. I don't like taking.
- Gum: I don't care for gum. But those yummy grape bubble tapes are good.
- Get along with your parents?: I love my mum, miss my dad.
- Good luck charm: Nope. I don't believe in luck. Everything happens for a reason.

In guys/girls
Eye color: Not a huge preference.
Hair Color: I don't care.
Height: Taller than me. I prefer 6' or taller.
Clothing Style: Something comfortable, but cute. Don't look like a bum. Prep-ish, I guess.

H
- Hair Color: Medium brown
- Height: 5'11"
- Happy: I could definitely be happy, but I know that I'm lucky to have what I have, and to be where I am.
- Holiday: Christmas <3
- How do you want to die: In my sleep, without pain
- Health freak?: I wish
- Hate: I try not to.

I
- Ice Cream: I don't care for it. But I do like cookie dough, or peanut butter cup pieces
- Instrument: Clarinet, Piano

J
- Jewelry: Earrings, necklace, bracelets, rings
- Job: I put together childrens' books, art, etc

K
- Kids: 3 at the most, prefer 2.
- Kickboxing or karate: I never tried kickboxing, so I can't say. I did take karate, so I'll choose that for now.
- Keep a journal?: I always try to, but end up writing in one for a week and then quit.

L
- Longest Car Ride: 12+ hours
- Love: Love it.
- Letter: Something I never receive
- Laughed so hard you cried: Funny movies, usually. I think the last time was when I saw Tropic Thunder
- Love at first sight: Lust at first site, love comes after.

M
- Milk flavor: Chocolate.
- Movie: Do I have to? Ever After, Pride & Prejudice...many more.
- Mooned anyone?: No thank you.
- Marriage: In the future
- Motion sickness? Definitely
- McD’s or BK: McDonald's

N
- Number of Siblings: 2
- Number of Piercings: Seven
- Number: Seven

O
- Overused Phrases: Fail. Epic. OME.
- One wish: To get a job so I can make the UK possible.

P
- Place you’d like to live: Somewhere new, exciting, a place to discover new things. Somewhere breathtaking, outstanding scenery, amazing nature
- Perfect Pizza: Sausage, peppers, cheese, pineapple
- Pepsi/Coke: I want to La Push soda off a cliff

Q
- Quail: Small meal.
- Questionnaires: I wish this one was over so I could get some sleep.

R
- Reason to cry: Sad movies. Hilarious moments. Death. New life.
- Reality T.V.: Go suck an egg.
- Radio Station: Overplayed music
- Roll your tongue in a circle? How does one do that?

S
- Song: "I'm on a Boat" Stuck in my head all day. Adam Samberg, marry me?
- Shoe size: 9.5
- Salad Dressing: Italian
- Sushi: No thanks
- Skipped school: Once I hit college, it was inevitable. Maybe I should make it a habit to use that word in every post.
- Slept outside: Camping?
- Seen a dead body? My father's. ...was that morbid? Also, my grandmother's, and an aunt's father.
- Smoked?: Absolutely not. I've seen what lung cancer does.
- Skinny dipped? No.
- Shower daily? Yes.
- Sing well?: Gross.
- In the shower? Sometimes.!
- Swear?: I do.
- Stuffed Animals?: Too many. I stuff them in black bags and toss them in the garage.
- Single/Group dates: Both.
- Strawberries/Blueberries: Strawberries
- Scientists need to invent: teleportation devices.

T
- Time for bed: RIGHT FREAKING NOW. 12:44AM
- Thunderstorms: Awesome!
- TV: Not often.
- Touch your tongue to your nose:? No way.
- Unpredictable: Your mom.

V
- Vegetable you hate: Peas, brussell sprouts.
- Vegetable you love: Corn on the cob, peppers
- Vacation spot: Anywhere but California

W
- Weakness: Babies, cats
- Which one of your friends acts the most like you: I don't know.
- Who makes you laugh the most: Jessica, Steve
- Worst feeling: Losing someone you love
- Wanted to be a model?: I have wanted to
- Where do we go when we die: That's your ultimate decision
- Worst weather: Really, really cold or really, really hot?

X
-X-Rays: Teeth, knees

Y
-Year it is now: 2009
-Yellow: Sunflower

Z
- Zoo animal: Serval
- Zodiac sign: Gemini

LAST PERSON WHO…
1. Slept in a bed beside you? Jessica
2. Last person to see you cry? Probably my mum
3. Went to the movies with you? Mabry, Jessica, Ashlee
4. You went to the mall with? Refer to above answer
5. You went to dinner with? Mum and brother
6. You talked to on the phone? Who knows? My mum, I believe
7. Made you laugh? Jessica

we'll be coming...

...to sing you Joy to the World.

uk will not be monorail.

I happen to be very bored with life, and most of you may or may not know this (isn't that inevitable?). I want out, and it's now or never. And now will happen in 2010, fyi.

February 2010 I will be going abroad: Ireland, Scotland, and England. That's right. How long you ask? 1 to 2 months. I'm going with my unbest friend, Jessica (who may or may not be going by Jessie whilst we're there).

So, for the next several months I will be planning with Jessica, and working very hard. I. Must. Find. A. Job. Why? Because how else will I be able to afford 2 months in Europe? Precisely.

So, I expect I'll change a bit out there, at least, I am hoping I will. I want to. I want to be optimistic, exciting, outrageous, random, spontaneous...fun.

And that's what I'll become.

So, this blog will be either fun or boring (isn't that inevitable as well?). I hope it's slightly entertaining. But right now, it won't be because I'm outrageously tired.

I probably won't make it to church tomorrow morning since it's already midnight.

I wonder if anyone will read this?

Ah well.